Lord, Humble Me

7:35 AM

For many years I told myself, "self, we don't need a phone do we? We are perfectly fine with the good ol' home phone, right?" 
And I agreed and I never once considered getting a phone. 
Until I got my license and family members knew it was time. Thus my sister Korin and I share a pink covered smartphone that only get's signal when we leave home (this is what happens when you live surrounded by hills and mountains).
At first I was a little upset by a cellphone - especially one as fancy as a smartphone (even if it does have limited minutes). I felt my identity had been stripped down, taken away. I was always the girl who never really owned anything technological (unless you count a fancy calculator), and I enjoyed shocking people when telling them I was perfectly fine being opposite many of my peers. 
I always considered my mark my black converse shoes, my camera, my home school years, the fact I like writing and last but not least the fact that I don't own a cellphone.
As I was complaining to God (even though I am grateful for the phone), I felt Him saying, "but isn't your identity supposed to be in me?"
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At first  I protested that my heart was in the right place, but deep down I knew He is right. For so long I let what I own, wear and listen to, watch, etc, be part of me, which is great. We all have our quirks and special styles, yet who we are should be cemented in Jesus Christ and how we follow Him. 
It's not about the fact I always prefer converse over any other shoes or that I could care less about what's in style. 
Having a shared cellphone doesn't change my relationship with Him (unless I allow it), and I had let my love of having no cellphone get in the way of my relationship with God.
I had let it become something I had rooted so deeply it took a lot to get it out. I wanted to be different and again, that can be a good thing because God calls us to be unique in Him, yet that had become my god in  a way. The little idea that having nothing-not even a computer- had sneaked up on me and became too important. It became more about what people thought about me then the fact that I actually liked having no phone. 
I cared more about who I am on the outside then the inside.

At the beginning of the summer I prayed a little prayer, "Lord, humble me." Little did I know He'd use part of my humbling experiences this season in the shape of a pink and blue floral smartphone. 
God honestly does work in ways we don't understand, and in ways w'd never want just to get us to where He wants us.

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  1. Wow. What an amazing post again!! <3

    1. Aww thank you so much Emily! You are a blessing are here. ♥

  2. Hey! I'm the same way! Glad to know that I'm not the only person with 80year old genes/phone! XD

    I'm similar like that--I refuse to use a smartphone...preferring to stick to a flip phone whose only users I've seen are 80 year olds...and being proud of it.
    I've recently been needed to switch to a smartphone (well, a phone with a touch screen)...and it was hard.
    Thanks for posting!

    1. I'm super excited that you're with me on this! You are the second person I know who shares my genes. Does your's have limited minutes as well? ;)

  3. Gahh, this is so great. I think a lot of us do this -- put our image in writing, or our things, or what we don't have. It's such a great reminder that you wrote up. <3

    // katie grace
    a writer's faith

    1. Exactly! We all do that and it's a hard thing to uproot. Thank you for commenting. ♥

  4. I relate to this so much: defining myself by my education, my hobbies, and even my phone! Another great blog post. Keep being awesome, Kara! <3

    1. And you keep being awesome Naomi - because I have to say, you are a lot more epic then I'll ever be. ♥ Love you!

  5. Thanks for this thought provoking post, Kara! You shine in your desire to serve the Lord no matter what! ♥
    ~ S. F.

    1. And thank you for commenting dear friend! You are a blessing. ♥


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